I've got my fingers crossed

Wishing a lot of things right now, I want them now, I don't know why, it's a very strange feeling, I can't describe it. Right now I wish to be with friends and also to be alone, but not at home, in a other country or something. Strange isn't it? But I wish, I need them or something:

It would be nice to hang around with friends in a old house, having fun and smoke some sigarrets (very bad wish!)

(the opposite of my first wish!) I want to sail in a little boat, in the sun, on my own, just thinking about everything, about the life and all the lovely things.

Right now I want to run into the sea in the sun with some friends in a hot country with a lot of sun, I really like to do that right now, haha.

I really really really want to find the love of my life, I'm searching for him every day. (but I never find him, haha!)